Dear Santa, 

This is what I want for Christmas. 

it’s been awhile since i lost myself in the video editing process. it’s a magical, consuming state of being and the above is a result of that state…or is it province? 

is it just part of human nature? to want to be consumed? absorbed into something so completely that you can’t recall the time or day or the last time you ate? 

obsession, perhaps that’s it.

i want to be obsessed with God. 

I read something written in my walmart italian pleather duel toned Bible yesterday that inspired? me. That right there is the perfect example…the struggle for the exact word. The word that describes precisely the sentiment, perfectly the idea that battles to be understood.

In Ephesians it says that we are God’s ‘workmanship’. The greek word used here is the same used when referring to the crafting of a poem. And to anyone who’s endeavored to pen poetry, the process of mulling and chewing over each syllable is well understood. I appreciate that God labored in such a way over me. And i also acknowledge, with mild frustration, that i will never be content in any expression of that sentiment that i may attempt. 

With that being said. I think I shall go to bed. 

Bonne nuit<3